I don’t usually have trouble falling asleep.  However, lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t want to head to bed.  I would rather just stay up. But I have nothing else to do.  And I’m tired.  Is there some sort of psychological/emotional tension that is telling me “if I stay up later, things will be ok”?  And how could that possibly be remotely true?!

Why am I still awake?  I’m going to bed now.  I love sleep, why do I delay it?!

I woke up from coughing.  Now I can’t sleep because I’m thinking and pre-visualizing all the av setup and the main sessions. in my mind.stuff like music before sessions, video songs, worship lyrics, computer setups, and a whole lot more.  i had a mocha in the afternoon and chinese tea  at dinner but nothing keeps you up at night more than a looming conference with many open loose ends.

Back in Toronto.  Lots of snow here.  Not quite what I would expect to be dumped on Ottawa regularly, but enough that the Zondervan got stuck on our street when I returned home.  However, that very night some plows came by and cleared our street.  Pretty fast eh?

So I drove for about 7 hours from Ottawa.  Usually it takes 5.  I was stuck behind a gang of highway plows for at least half an hour at one section after Kingston.  It made it safer, but much slower.  I would say the driving wasn’t too dangerous, just warrented caution.  Although I was driving straight into the storm, the roads weren’t covered in snow for the most part on the right lane.  The passing lane was a bit more treacherous.

Right about when I arrived home I started having a headache and as I went to bed early, I plunged into a fever.  Woke up midway through the night and popped some acetaminophen tablets.  I’ve been taking those every 4-6 hours since then.  I have never been a big proponent of pain-killers but the last time I was sick I refused to take drugs until a friend told me that the pain-killers will lower my core brain temperature and allow me to battle out the sickness quicker (I think that’s what it means!).

Went to a wedding for Elvin and Carol today, saw many supporters and friends, but didn’t really feel like had enough energy to engage much or even smile…. that part is a bummer.

I’ve slept most of the other hours of the day.  I’m quite determined that I get better soon so that I won’t be sick through these holidays and Winter Conference.

I am doing some paperwork.  I just reached my clerical breaking point.  Entering parking stubs is monotonous.  But I have to do it in order to get money back…

Another breaking point I went through today was the realization that I should go buy a bed.  So I went to Sleep Country and bought a mattress with pillowtop and good support, and it was on cash’n'carry as well as mix’n'match so I got it for much cheaper than it should have cost regular price.  And he threw in a 1/2 price mattress cover too.  And then after doing some equipment pickup, I went to Ikea and flew in and booked it out after purchasing a day-bed.  A couple hours later and it’s now constructed and ready to be enjoyed.  I hope this purchase will allow for me to have more restful sleep, even if my sleep length doesn’t increase.