Coming back from a week full of people, I realized today that I felt very lonely.

I got my computer back but even the surfing on Facebook or YouTube or blogrolling didn’t help my loneliness (not like it actually ever will).  And I don’t always feel like calling someone when I’m lonely and I know I need to be around people.

Fortunately, I was able to go to Margie’s place to play some Scrabble with her and Angela.  Just something good to get me out of the house and at least 100m from my house (I had gone a block away to get a haircut earlier today).

Recently when asked to share one of my greatest needs right now, I realized that I lack good friends physically around me who care and actually go deep.  I might struggle with many other things but I think this issue is one of the root issues.  Now I’m getting more connected with a very committed men’s group at church, which is a good step, but it seems like it’s moving pretty slowly.

One of the things I observed in most of my friendships is that I do most of the question asking.  After a while, this becomes wearying.  I’m looking for more.  When will there be more?

Tags: emotion, friends, lonely, social

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